Mr. Pumpkin - Halloween (SA Wardega)

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Happy Halloween!!! 

Are you looking at me?

Do you ever just find yourself in  a situation where everyone is staring at you? Like why on earth would they be staring? Whenever someone stares at me I think of every possible thing in my head that they could possibly be staring at and freak out. I hate feeling like people are judging me, I know they do but I don't really want to feel them judging me. They say when you stare at a monkey, it goes crazy. I think I'm the monkey in this situation. I read once that in France people stare at other people openly to admire their beauty and it isn't considered creepy or rude. But I don't care who you are if you stare at me, I'm usually sending death threats in my head.

Imagine this: you see your crush and of course they look cute as always. You're just admiring the way they look, because anybody you have a crush on has got to be hot... Not realizing you're practically drooling, not cute by the way, when your crush turns and catches you staring. I'm going to tell you now that there are different types of staring and unless you want it to be super obvious that you like this person you better be discreet.  I mean there is  a difference between staring at a guy friend and staring at a guy you want to date.

I really should apologize in advance for the staring that I do, because I stare a lot.... Even if I'm not actually staring at you, it happens. I'll go from staring at an attractive guy, to staring at someone's shoe, to staring at my friends hair, to staring at someone's shirt. I even stare at the ceiling which confuses many people but I guess I find the answers to everything up there. But I always, always look at someone when they are talking to me or I'm talking to them. If I can look you in the eye you can do the same.

I absolutely cannot stand when people wear their freaking sunglasses inside a building. Like is that really necessary? Does it make you feel cool or something? I used to think it was stupid when teachers told students to take them off inside the classroom, well now I understand why. If you wear sunglasses inside there's about a strong chance I'm judging you. I could tolerate a medical condition, and maybe a couple times where you just "forgot" to take them off. But if you do it consistently, it's ridiculous. I can't tell if you're staring at me or the poster behind me, and then I'm just not sure whether to acknowledge you or ignore you without being rude. Does looking at someone while wearing sunglasses inside make you feel powsrful or something. Because it just pisses me off.

I just love it when a teacher stares at you expecting you to know the answer, hey I can stare back so this might last a while.  Do you ever just feel like staring contests can definitely be in your favor? I suck at them but against the right people they work for me. But hey if a guy has really gorgeous eyes, I have no problem staring back, unless they are like way to intense that it's scary. Those moments when you accidentally glance up, making eye contact with someone you don't like, I hate those.

Sorry about my random little rant, I hope you enjoyed it.

Sex & Violence

Maybe I have captured your attention with that title. But fear not this isn't some racy discussion about the topics of sex and bad things about it or how sex leads to violence or that if you have sex you will die. Sorry that's a run on sentence and a little bit of a mean girls reference, but seriously I read a book and that was its title....

What?!! I read a book? I know, it's crazy and sadly it's actually been awhile since I posted something I could call a decent book "review" or you know recommendation.  So I hope you guys appreciate this one, because this book was different for me.

Now the book is called, Sex & Violence, by Carrie Mesrobian. What threw me off though was the fact that the story was well written and in a guy's point of view and not many people can pull off the opposite sex view with out it being too biased but Mesrobian pulled it off. I have read some pretty disturbed books that were in a guy's point of view, and some times they switch. It was harder to tell which characters were more into sex than the other because both view points were pretty bad.

So anyways the story is about a teenage boy named Evan Carter and how he was used to being the "Freaking new guy" and basically had the ability to charm his way into most girls pants since he never really stayed in one place for so long. Well his actions kind of get back at him, let's just say that karma kicked his ass, and his actions also bring harm unto a girl he get's involved with. After experiencing Karma, Evan's dad moves them to a safer more permanent location where he can recover and learn more about himself. Not many guys can admit that they are assholes or slutty whores but Evan admits it right off the back and from the beginning of the story you watch him grow and change as a person. That sounds kind of corny and he isn't some butterfly experiment but his experiences are kind of thought provoking.  In this book about a summer of last chances and recovering there is a lot to be loved.

I love this quote alluding to Evan's father:

"He treated stuff like that how I'd imagine a father would treat his daughter's mentstrual cycle-with caution and distance." 

I think anybody could read this book, it's a little sensitive but it isn't a bad read so check it out. 

What is life?

 Talk about being  unlucky. Having Microsoft word go crazy on you and lock you out of all of your files, well that's just kind of unfortunate, especially when you have so much crap due!It's just so depressing and sad and I just want to cry. But I won't, because no one has time for little baby tears. I guess I'll have to figure things out so I can get everything done, but I really wanted to blog. I've got a planner full of assignments and I'm managing my time out so I can have a little fun. Music, running, studying, oh the stress. I was really looking forward to working on my book too, but that's hard to do when the documents aren't working in your favor. You know this probably wasn't a good option, but anyways I went on Twitter because I was bored and tired of complaining to myself. Only to find more people complaining for themselves. It's okay every now and then to see that, but when your whole timeline is filled with people talking about giving up, and complaining, it makes you want to work harder. When it seems like everyone is all depressed, you just need something to cheer you up. So here is something cute to make your day!

Bittersweet

Have you ever tasted dark chocolate before? Sweet, yet bitter, like you don't know whether to hate it or love it so you just kind of choose to love it. At least that's how I see things. Here are a couple things I currently view as bittersweet:

• The Fault in our Stars, by John Green. 

• A beautiful story where the main character Hazel, basically deals with the fact that she has cancer and challenges the way people view certain things in life. Like are there really things called Cancer perks? It's a novel about falling in love and like most teenage girls will tell you, if you read it you most likely will cry. You know if you don't cry it doesn't make you any less human, it just means that the story didn't have the same emotional effect on you that it had for other people. It is worth reading, after listening to so many good reviews I decided to read it and I don't regret it. The main character makes me what to change the way I approach things, makes me want to not give up.
• Fast Six 
• You know the movie where people drive fast cars and you know make lot's of money and do cool action tricks and such. 
• Bittersweet because Han loses his girlfriend (spoiler alert) and Don gets back with the wrong girl. Of course to everyone else Don made the right choice, but to me, no he picked the wrong girl.

• Glee
• You know that television show where a lot of people claim, ruins all their favorite songs.
• (Personally I think some of their covers are better)
• In reality I think the show actually helps get new music out to viewers, but if any of Lorde's songs get put on that show I'll be upset. I actually heard the Glee version of Wings by Little Mix and that is how I started listening to them. 
• But I'm trying to decide whether or not I really want to watch it again like....
• Also, I think that the tribute episode to Cory Monteith is going to be really sad regardless of the fact that I stopped really watching the show two seasons ago. I just like getting a proper goodbye. 
• Cancelled Abc Family shows
• There are quite a few:
• The Nine Lives Of Chloe King
• Which I guess isn't so bad because for closure they did put up the never before released script. I guess I'll have to read one of these days. It's too soon. Just kidding it's never too soon.
• The Lying Game
• I was actually kind of in to this show. Then I read on Wikipedia it was cancelled.
• a couple others who didn't catch on to me.
• You know the shows with those names that just don't ring a bell. You remember watching them just not really caring what they were about. 
• Not knowing whether or not you are going to regret something. Life is all about taking chances so it's hard. You don't want to have any regrets but what you regret now might mean nothing later. Things happen for a reason, but you know you never really want to admit you made a mistake . 
• Being a Senior... 
• I feel like thats self explanitory.
• When skinny girls call themselves fat:

I never thought my words would mean anything to anyone else. Until I shared some of the things that I wrote with people. I sometimes just sit in class and randomly write out my thoughts because sometimes, those crazy thoughts, can be super overwhelming. If the mind of a teenager is 90% song lyrics, than the other 10% for me, is definitely thoughts about life. I'm going to try my best to get better at sharing my thoughts, because I really am a happy person. I just have a lot of deep thinking moments that can sound super depressing.

The Kissing booth...

        Reputations, rumors, fights, romance, high school, and a first kiss.For some people the have their first kiss in like elementary school and it's no big deal because boys and girls have cooties and it wasn't serious anyways. For others it's that first relationship in junior high where both the boy and the girl are shy and it's going to suck no matter what because it's just awkward and neither of you know what you are doing. Or maybe that's just what I've read in books but then again, they were talking about sex so... Sorry if that doesn't apply to your experiences. It's sometimes very rare to come across someone in HIGH SCHOOL who hasn't had their first kiss yet. If their friends are jerks they probably get made fun of, " what you've never kissed anyone?", "my god you need to get laid", and "you are missing out", sure none of that's demeaning or depressing but it gets annoying. Talking from experience by the way, because I'm just lame like that.

      So what do you do when you haven't had your first kiss and one of your friends need you to fill their spot in a kissing booth? You read the book "The Kissing Booth", by Beth Reekles to find out. I'm kind of kidding but seriously you should read the book. It's got an awesome love triangle in it too. For the main character it's all about choosing the right guy and sometimes choosing between your best friend and a guy that makes you feel even more special than your friend does is hard. All the drama, it all starts from one kiss. Well the feelings were there before the kiss but yeah, the kiss started it all. I think I laughed through a lot of this book because it was funny and exciting and totally awkward all at the same time. My mom often asks me what book I'm reading so that she can 'bond' and 'talk about it' with me, but I read the strangest books and she reads to slow so that doesn't really work out. This book was really good and I would recommend it to anyone and it was written by a seventeen year old girl so props to her. But imagine watching some awkward sex scene on Vampire Diaries or The Secret life and having your grandma walk in. It's just very uncomfortable.

     So yeah, read the book because  you'll enjoy it.