Why I am totally dateable…

In journalism we were told to write a persuasive article about any topic. My friend and I were joking around about what to write so I decided to write a fake article . Who writes fake articles? Lame people who have no life, but whatever. Here is what I came up with.:

Why I am totally date-able…



Did you know that in the world of high-school dating, freshman girls and senior boys have the highest chances of successfully getting together? But their relationship usually treads between the borders of good and just plain creepy.  If you didn’t already know that, I’m guessing you can look around your school hallways and find the girls that are usually called “baby hoes”, just know they didn’t get those names because of their kind hearts. So why is it, that many senior girls are often single? One website claims it’s because they’re “picky” and won’t give certain people a chance. Yeah, that’s probably true because after four years of dealing with the same guys, they probably just know what they want in a relationship. After being taught over and over again that boys just want sex and that’s all they want, it’s amazing that girls still date. But thinking about it that's not really true because, girls think about sex just like any guy except they will probably lie about it or freak out that you asked them that sort of question. Besides, if you don’t feel comfortable enough talking about sex, you most likely shouldn’t be having it in the first place.

Chances are that if you are reading this you are probably single. Well guess what so am I, and have been for the past seventeen years. So instead of letting an opportunity go by, I’m just going to tell you why I am totally date-able. Sadly I don’t think saying “because I’m awesome,” will be convincing enough and it makes it sound like I think too highly of myself. On a serious note, I’m not really a mean person and I don’t have a “type”.  So maybe I do have a “type”, but let’s just say you fit it. Now sometimes music choices can make or break a relationship, but I don’t really care what you listen to as long as your little heart is happy. If you want to listen to Taylor Swift be my guest. But  I really don’t hate on people’s music choices but I just don’t understand many of them, if you listen to Selena Gomez though you’re winning.I'll pretty much listen to anything because I like giving songs a chance before I decide I absolutely hate them.  I’ll sing with you, really I’m a bad singer, but in the end I’m willing to look stupid as long as it’s fun. I enjoy horror movies, and by enjoy I mean I like hiding behind pillows and  jumping from my seat when things happen. So at least if we watch one together you can get a good laugh because my reactions are pretty hilarious. I’m really honest, if you do something stupid, chances are I’m going to tell you and not to make you feel dumb either. AlsoI like being right, but I don’t mind being wrong, I’m not going to explode with anger if you know something I don’t. Just don’t question my intelligence and I won’t question yours.               

My personality type is type B, which means I’m pretty relaxed and easy going so at least you know I’m not going to freak out at a drop of a dime. I’m kind of a mix between type A and B, but I think being angry and holding grudges is a waste of time.  I’m a runner, if that says something, it says it all. I put in a lot of energy to run, which is why I really don’t get into fights and I stay pretty relaxed.  Also I like to work out and being healthy and I am not one of those girls who complain about their weight. If you think I’m not skinny enough, tough luck kid, go date a toothpick.  If you decide I’m worth dating, just know I do like sarcasm but I limit it so you know how I really feel. But I like discussions and debates, on simple things. I don’t talk politics and I really don’t discriminate against other people’s religious views. I like to read, which means I have patience and I’m pretty committed, but maybe reading has nothing to do with either of those things. If you like reading we can have discussions about books! Even though that sounds really lame, and would probably make us losers.  I’m not afraid to say what’s on my mind or what I’m feeling, in fact if we’re going to be losers , we will be the most amazing losers in the world.  I’d do anything for the people I care about, and chances are, if we’re dating I probably would have to like you at least a little bit. I'm a really, really good listener.  If you called me in the middle of the night or the middle of the day saying you needed someone to talk to I’d answer, always. If you needed a person to lean on I’d be over in a minute. Just know I can only bench press seventy five pounds so don’t expect to be throwing all of your weight at me...but I would be there.

I’m a girl, so chances are you think all girls have some crazy freak bipolar tendencies, and I’m here to tell you that that is sometimes true. I like to keep my emotions plain and simple and I don’t need to act sad to get people’s attention. Ask me what’s wrong and I’ll tell you. If I say something like, “I don’t want to talk about it,” that damn right means “I really want to talk about it and for you to listen, but I don’t want you to think I’m annoying.” I don’t do leading people on, that crap gets old and after a while even little kids stop chasing butterflies. I really like laughing and I enjoy making other people laugh, but I really don't consider myself funny at all. If you laugh it’s usually when I’m not trying and my favorite thing to see is a smile on someone’s face. If you’re smiling like a creep though, we might need to talk.

There are many things a person can fear, I’m probably scared of a 101 things but you’ll never know what they are unless you ask. If you ask me for my number that’s like a guaranteed yes, because you asked and the only other guy who has asked me was like my coaches son. I’m a pretty good multi-tasking, I wrote this while I was working on my English homework, aren’t I cool?  You know how when you meet someone, something about them can just stand out and you know you like them? Well the first thing I notice about a person is their smile and their eyes. I like guys who aren’t afraid to show emotion and I just like happy people. But, rarely will I ever mention to a guy that they have nice eyes, and if I do I’m either on some weird medication, or I like that person. It really doesn’t matter what color eyes you have, although I have a favorite. I hope my personality makes up for brown eyes because let’s face it, they’re basic.

Drama is pretty pointless, and I don’t even like to go near it. I wouldn’t even take the class. Sure after watching Mean Girls, I kind of wish I could see that type of drama but no, I don’t even want to be a part of it. It get's annoying when other people get involved in personal things and that is something I don't have patience for.

They are probably many different reasons that I’m date-able, but I’m trying not to sound too pretentious. But I hope you found what I had to say at least a little bit interesting. This probably wasn't proof read.  I try not to bore people to death, sorry but I’m not sorry if I did.

Control

When people get dumped, I don't think they are really that mad because it was embarrassing and that they really liked that person and expected a happily ever after. Well, okay maybe that's possible, but I think people are more upset because they didn't do it  themselves. Because who likes being beat at their own game? Sorry, but if someone gives you a warning signal that they don't have feelings for you anymore, take that hint and end it. Otherwise don't go crying when they do.You see it in the movies all the time guy/girl dumps significant other, significant other get's upset cries, screams and shouts then says something like, "I was going to break up with you anyways". Well you could have but you didn't so it kind of sucks for you right now.

I'm honestly not trying to sound cynical but, it's the control aspect of the sitiuation. No one likes to be out of control. You know those people who are afraid of love and want nothing to do with it? The one's who say they could live with a bunch of hook ups and be fine with it. Many times those people are just afraid of getting hurt. You can't control someone else's feelings and you can't stop them from hurting you. No one wants to get hurt. If you do enjoy getting hurt, you should see someone about that.

Imagine this, you're a teenager who just got their driver's license and it's a big deal. You finally get to drive and you have all this freedom. Now imagine after a few months of driving you're parents tell you that you can't drive for some silly reason and that you have to ride the bus. Tragic, right? There isn't exactly anything wrong with riding the bus, someone drives you around for free?  But it's like you lost something you actually had control over. You could hop in a car and go wherever you wanted, you were behind the wheel and it was all up to you. Having someone else behind the wheel sucks. See I know I can't drive because of my pain medicine and it just makes me sad because I love driving myself places.

Today my nurse asked me if I had to go "potty". I seriously wanted to Gibbs slap him across the back of his head. Like how old do I look? I hate doctors, hospitals and because they seem to be the only one's who can diagnose me and I still don't know what's wrong. I don't like taking medicine because I don't like the idea of relying on something that is only going the mask the problem and not get rid of it. I don't like feeling weak or pathetic and that is why I rarely tell people what the heck is going on. I feel like if someone cares enough about you, they will ask the questions, actually try to find things out. But I do talk to the people I care about because I would never want them to worry. I've only been seriously upset because I couldn't control something and that was my grandmother having Breast Cancer. No one told me she had had it for  a year. No one told me she had surgery. No one told me until they thought I needed to know. Now that may have been a good call but at the time I found out I just wish I could have done something important that could help. I had never taken cancer as a joke but now I take it even more seriously. Breast Cancer Awareness is one of the reasons why my favorite color is pink.

I believe in romance and happy endings. I think that one day the answers will come. That's why I enjoy blogging and writing. It's the one thing I can control, I can create my own happy endings. Somethings are out of our grasps and we just have to go with the flow. But everyone get's afraid sometimes. I can't control how you'll react to this but I hope it means something to you because every post means something to me.

What would you do if......

Someone asked me what I would do if the person in front of me bought the last 3 musketeers bar from the vending machine. The answer is simple, I would push them down grab it and run away triumphantly. Okay, so maybe I really wouldn't do that but it sounds good.  If you're wondering whats so great about this candy bar, it's my absolute favorite.  In the past couple of weeks it's honestly been my lunch everyday and if you don't believe me, I have witnesses. Obviously it's not the healthiest choice, but it's mine. If a guy brought me a 3 musketeers bar for no reason, I would be the happiest person in the world, but that's never going to happen so...

There are certain  ways I would react to different situations and just remember Karma is a bitch. If you don't believe that, ask me how I spilled water all over myself. That is why I wouldn't push someone down unless they were trying to beat me up because I don't want to get jumped at some later point in my life. So What would I do if.....

1. Marvin doesn't win America's Next Top Model Cycle 20?I would probably cry and talk about how much I hate the show and how the fact that he didn't win was stupid.  I would also most likely eat myself into a food coma.

Well Marvin didn't win and I didn't cry. I've just been in shock and you know at least he was happy when he lost. I still can't believe it, a guy honestly should have won and it should have been him. Why can't people see the same talent I see? I was team Starvin Marvin from the beginning, everyone talked about how he wouldn't make it. Well that kid made it to the finale, the final two and he did an amazing job. Jourdan was a great model, I just hated her the whole time. Maybe that's how she won she took all the dislike and having little to no support and turned it into great photographs. I'm really just upset though, not saying she didn't deserve it. I just hated hearing her sob story every step of the way. But she won and she's America's Next top Model and I'm still in  high school dreaming about  being a model, which isn't happening. This is just the first time in a while where I actually got involved with a show and now I'm disappointed.

2. When a character in a book/ show you like chooses the wrong guy?  I would get pissed and stop watching the show for awhile.

3. If some guy I know threw his water bottle at me?  Well this happened, and I ended up spilling water all over my pants. Wasn't really mad because I saw it coming since I started it. So I basically just walked around looking like I wet my pants. Sad, right?



4. If someone told me they wanted to commit suicide?  I would just listen and do my best to help them out. Sometimes all people need is somebody to listen to them. I wouldn't keep it to myself though, I'd tell someone who could potentially help them. I try to avoid any and all situations like this because I just can't deal with it.

5. If a guy I like asked me out? Honestly I would laugh. Only because I can never picture that happening and I'd probably think it was a prank. If they were being serious though, I would have to say yes.


6. If the person in front of me bought the last 3 musketeers bar from the vending machine?

..... All Hell would break loose. 


Life, things get real, sometimes.

Why am I so lame?

Mind reading.

One of my absolute favorite songs is, Hear me, by Imagine Dragons. It's funny because it's like my song, I find it very easy to relate to. Do you want to know why?That's simple, I just want people to hear me. No I want people to listen.The other song is called  Show me love, by The Wanted, it's a sad but inspirational song that really just makes me happy.

I'm no mind reader, I have no clue if people actually like the things I have to say or actually care to listen. Then when it seems like someone finally listens, it's like they are just judging me inside their little minds. Like can you not. I hate having to explain myself and I love the people who get me. I start about five different blog posts and delete most of them, and when I finally come up with a good idea, I'm just like nobody is going to read this because I wrote it. I blog about a lot of my personal experiences and the people I'm around, if you're close to me chances are I blogged about you. Don't worry if I like you it's usually funny, nice things. But  I will say I do feel bad for the friends I stopped talking to, the one's I cut off. I didn't exactly mean to, but I did and I had my reason's sadly.But the thing is, when I miss someone, I talk to them. I at least acknowledge them, just wanting them to know I do think about them.

I watched this move called Stuck in Love, and it was a depressing, happy, amazing movie that just kind of moved me. Lily Collins played a cynical romance hating nineteen year old and Logan Lerman played the sweet guy who just wanted to get to know her. She basically told the guys in the movie she would have sex with them because she knew they wanted to do it and she wanted to do it so it would be easy. Obviously she could read minds. Basically the moral of the story was that, the time makes the heart grow fonder.

I feel like this is about to get personal really fast so... Sorry. 

I needed distance, I'm pretty sure at one point everyone feels like they can't deal with something anymore, they're so over it. Isn't that why break ups happen? I doubt every guy a girl dates is  a cheating man whore. Just like I doubt that every girl the a guy goes out with is going to leave them for that guy's older/younger brother. No pretty sure decent people do exist. So I needed to seperate myself from the people who were causing me the most pain. They never hurt me or did me wrong, I just want to move on. It was like that much needed long run where as you're running, nothing  else matters. It's like being in a free world where it's ok if you look stupid while your jumping on your trampoline because no one is here to judge you. Now I'm no gymnast, but I was tired of doing flips for people who wouldn't do the same for me. I can't confide in someone who can't keep a secret and I can't comfort someone who won't take it. One time I told someone I'd never had my first kiss before and they just told me all my flaws and that I was pathetic. You know whats scary? I'm afraid that I almost believed them.

One of the reasons I love texting so much is because, I actually have time to think things through with out feeling rushed. There are moments when I'm just like, I could have said this or that, but really no need to over think a text message. Sure if my crush texted me I'd probably be a little excited-oh wait- he doesn't have my number. Because, well that would just make me happy.

"I got a thousand friends that follow me/
Just to read about my misery"

I don't want people to listen or talk to me because they think I'm miserable and need comforting. No that is not me. I'm a happy person who's just going through life,I've just come to not deal with certain things anymore. I'm a  teenage girl who just wishes people would understand the way I think about things.I like it when people talk to me because they want to.

But right now I'm just counting stars....

Fears and Insecurities

What's your biggest fear, is it knowing that people might actually see the real you? How many times have you gone back inside you house to change an outfit or a hairstyle because you felt like it wasn't good enough?  Once? Twice? How many times have you done something different just to impress someone and they still didn't notice a thing?

Let's start with a word:

Insecure:

1.

(of a person) not confident or assured; uncertain and anxious.

So let's say being insecure is natural because hey, nobody's perfect but people still strive to be perfect.  Sometimes for themselves and sometimes for someone else. You see I would have never really thought to write something about insecurities because I wouldn't want people looking for all of mine. But one of my friends told me I should talk about them. It's funny because out of all the people I know she would never strike me as someone who is insecure. If fact, after many hilarious conversations I wish I could have recorded, she definitely is not. 

Here is a fun little question, How many times have you taken like fifty pictures of yourself and then decided they weren't good enough because of this or that? Think about it, I can randomly delete all the photos on my phone and not worry about, because they were all selfies no one was ever going to see. It's not the fact that I enjoy taking pictures of myself, okay the stupid ones yeah, I can just never take the perfect picture. There are people who post pictures just so they can have attention brought to themselves, and I give them props because I couldn't do it.

One thing that used to piss me so much, was listening to girls complain and complain about their weight. Most of them weren't even close to fat, so I basically decided they were conceited, stuck up brats who only cared about the way they looked. But they weren't, they were just insecure because they felt their weight was a flaw that people would judge them about.  Think about the movie Mean Girls, and if you say you've never watched it before, please let me punch you in the face. Anyways The Plastics were all just  insecure mean girls who wanted everyone to believe that they were perfect. Regina was concerned with her weight so that made it easy for Cady to manipulate her. Cady was insecure about her intelligence so she started acting stupid to get Aaron to tutor her, only to find out later that he liked her better when she was herself. Gretchen just felt like she had to be apart of something so she did end up joining the "cool asians." Even the the movie was very sexual, funny, and filled with backstabbing it did teach a really good lesson. I mean on Wednesdays we wear pink, some people just want to be apart of something.

It's really easy to feel insecure, I said in another post before, that when people stare at me I just think about every flaw they could be seeing. Maybe it's because I can't read minds, but I sure as hell would love to know why people stare at me. Insecurities kind of go hand in hand with fears, because most of the time you're afraid that people will find out the things that make you insecure.

But honestly everyone is beautiful.

Um happiness?

Let's just say my life is full of laughs. Like even when I'm sad someone could make me sad and I'd be happy like right away. It's what I guess you could call a coping mechanism. So Why don't I just talk about the things that make me laugh and question life? I was going to talk about subtweets and texting but that's not really cool enough to be it's own blog post.

1. The song 23, by Mike Will feat Wiz Kahlifa and Miley Cyrus... I heard this song when I was in a parking lot waiting for my sister one night. I pretty much turned the radio up and died laughing. I was just like wait a minute, was that Miley Cyrus. I had no idea how this musical masterpiece had been hiding from me for so long. Just kidding, it is pretty catchy. My favorite line is, "if you a lame, that's a shame, you can't hang with us," and I think I like it because I'll never be able to say that to someone with out them thinking that I'm crazy.

2.  High School bathrooms. Okay, I know this is weird but I seriously try to stay away from the bathrooms as possible. But they do provide a good laugh every once in a while. I would just like to ask, is it really necessary to block the sinks and the paper towel dispenser just so you can can stare at yourself in the mirror? I don't know how many applications of eyeliner you need to apply, but when you walk out of the bathroom looking like you just got mugged by a bunch of crayons, you need to stop. I mean I have no problem with people checking their make up every once and a while, but when I just want to wash my hands and go to class you need to move. The bathroom walls, make me laugh so much and I just wonder how people come up with these things. Sometimes it's song lyrics, other times it's  who's the most doable guy at the school or which chick is going to get her butt kicked. My favorite was "friends won't always have your back but God will," thank you for that inspiring information.

3. Fox tails . I don't understand why people wear them, and if you have no idea what I'm talking about please refer to the pictures provided. Do you know how crazy it is to look up from lunch to someone walking by with a tail on? Like is there some secret method/ meaning behind them? If I wear one will more people like me? What get's me the most is when people wear them on the side, like it's a tail it goes over your butt!! I know everyone has their own sense of style but if it involves wearing fake animal parts, maybe you should rethink your outfit, because if I'm judging you I know for a fact that at least two other people are. I'm not mean enough to post a picture of one of my classmates online though. I've seen it done and I felt so bad I had to like it. Someone just let me in on the secret already.

4. Why is it... alright for you to text me when you need something, but whenever I ask for something  you lost my number. Don't you just hate when your so called "friend" texts you out of the blue asking for something and if you can't satisfy them, you mean nothing. What makes them so special? If you have no idea what I'm talking about maybe you should evaluate the way you treat people, because it might be you who does it. I'll always want to be your friend, I'll just stop answering. Although if you give me cupcakes we can work something out.

5. My sister's desire to get my friends to not like being around me.... It's life

6. Texting, you have no idea how much I love texting. I can't stand talking on the phone, correction, I hate it. Texting always me to take time to think my answers through without an awkward silence.  Do you know how awkward it is to send the wrong person a text message, especially when it's about them? That's only happened to me about twice. But when people call me I answer and if they can't convince me to talk, I hang up. Rude I know, but don't waste my time and I won't waste yours.

Wow I had so many other things I wanted to say!!! this post will probably get changed in the near future. So for now I hopee you enjoyed this sucky one.

Shit Girls Say

Lol XD I can't even function right now, funny laughs that I needed. 

No holding back

One of my friends once called me a gossip sponge because I had this ability to just listen to everybody talk about their problems and trash talk their best friends. To me it was no big deal because it was entertaining, never a boring day honestly. Sometimes I might have slipped a few details to some people, but for the secrets that really mattered, I kept them to myself. I still do actually. Funny how, I've never really had someone listen to me. To many times have I been cut off mid sentence, like what I have to say means nothing. I hope that one day what I have to say actually means something to someone because I would hate to do all this writing in vain. Maybe the problem is, I just don't quite know who the right people I should talk to are, because I surround myself with the people I comfortable with, that I know. I'm not shy, don't let that shit fool you. I've gone up to total strangers and ate lunch with them before, granted I had a little encouraging.

One thing that really bothers me is most definitely when people feel the need to broadcast every aspect of their personal life to the whole world. You know that saying "I don't kiss and tell" well, you should probably consider "I don't have sex and tell", because nobody really gives a flying squirrel on where, when, why or how awesome the sex you had was. Maybe you think it's "cool" or whatever and that you're the shit but honestly it just makes you look pathetic and immature and like you  can't keep something very personal a secret. I used to just laugh when people told about the things they've done but to be honest it just made me feel uncomfortable and it left some really awkward images in my mind. I mean think about, would you want your parents-no- grandparents announcing every time they did the deed? I think not. 

Oh you you know what I also find annoying? When people talk about things your involved in or know about right in front of you and then act like you're not even there. Like hello, I can hear all the things you're saying and you need to stop stahp. It's one thing to say things that are accurate and it's another to be completely biased and like you're above everyone else. No, I am so tired of being that person who has to hear that  crap. If you want to talk about how awesome you are go look in the mirror or speak to someone who actually cares. It's absolutely hilarious how I'm that quiet girl with all these thoughts but I have to let them out or I'll just be a hateful girl. There is no way in hell that I am anywhere close to perfect, and people probably want to punch me in the face half the time as well, but I would never talk about myself being way better than people at this or that because I'm probably not.

Why can't people just be themselves instead of trying to be perfect for everybody else? It's so sad seeing the same people try so hard to get other people's attention so they do it the wrong way. I have so much respect for those people who are like super fans when it comes to an actor, band, tv show, or artist. Not in like a creepy way or anything, the just know what's going on before it's mainstream. I know people who could quote the Vampire Diaries word for word or name every song by Lana Del Rey before half the world even knew what Summertime Sadness was. I laugh so hard when someone tries jumping on to the bandwagon and then get's called out for it. Because if you were there from the start cheering whoever or whatever on, you have absolute seniority over that person who accidentally Pandora'd a song that came out five years ago. Don't get me wrong, there is nothing bad about getting into something new, but don't do it because you think you'll impress a guy or make a bunch of people like you. When it comes down to it, they'll like you for who you are, as long as you showed them that person in the beginning. I don't know half the rock bands or bands or whatever that people I know talk about, and I'm not going to pretend like I do so they'll like me more.

I am absolutely so over the people who only know my cell phone number when it comes time for them to need something. The thing is never used to hesitate until now. Played me like a cello, I've been ditched a parks, used as a way to get out of the house to meet boys, "can I have his number", " Mercedes come here, will that friend of yours be coming back out to her car I need to ask her something". Well to that last one, how the hell am I supposed to know I can't read minds? Maybe I'm stupid for not realize that half the time I'm being played, but I like to believe there are a few good people that i know. I go above and beyond for people, it's what I love doing. How is a so called friend going to talk crap about you with your own sister, like no can you not? "She can't even get a boyfriend and that's her little pathetic life," I've might not have ever been in a relationship but I sure has hell have had way more fun than you could ever imagine. All those times you come complaining to me about your "relationship issues,"well I'm stress free. My life might be pathetic to you, but it's my life and I absolutely love it.  I seriously wanted to cry but I didn't I just walked away, I got this random hug from a guy whose never hugged me before without even asking so I guess that helped me feel a little better.

It's not about how times you've been kissed or the hottest celebrity or band out there. No it's not about who slept with who and how she might end up sixteen and pregnant. No it's about living life and loving the people you surround yourself with. Because if you secretly hate every thing, you're only holding yourself back from something better. Don't get stuck in unhappiness because you think you have to.

This post went from a good idea to a muddy freaking mess. Sorry, had my thoughts all jumbled up.

Love Triangles

You know sometimes there is this thing authors and writers like to make to, spice the stories up. It's my absolute favorite thing to be able to say "PLOT TWIST," but sometimes there make me angry. Most of the plot twist I have come to know are those little love triangles. Who doesn't love a little drama?
Seriously in many of the books I read, shows I watch,  movies that are pretty hot and even in real life love triangles are pretty much everywhere. Those Twilight fans who were all "team Edward" and " Team Jacob" and I'm just team can you not.  I'm not going to lie when I first read Twilight I was into it, into it enough to throw my book against the wall. But I was never really for a character. Of course when the movies came out people were going to pick the hotter guy, or the character they loved the most. Even in The Hunger Games people picked a team. Of course in the end Katniss picked the right guy and I was happy. It sucks when a character picks the wrong guy, or girl. It makes you so angry because it's like everything you hoped and wished for, fell through the cracks. Everyone was so mad when Katniss didn't pick Gale and I was all happy and giggling to myself, like that's right snitches I won this time. Granted I'm really weird so I actually did do that.

Did you ever watch the show THE NINE LIVES OF CHLOE KING, you know that ABC family show that got canceled after the first season? If so you already know that love triangle. I was so pissed when it got cancelled too. I finally had the time to read that released script of the never made movie. Talk about closure. I was finally able to smile and I was inspired to write like a movie/ television script. Of course I still want to write books but that script looked so simple. And guess what Chloe picked the right guy. If you have any idea of what I'm talking about check out the link: :The Nine Lives of Chloe King final script , if not carry on.  I won't say who she picks though you have to read it.

The one love triangle thing I currently hate is the one from The Vampire Diaries. Elena fell in love with the wrong guy. I'm one of those people that really liked Stefan and thought he was the perfect guy. I know people  who are like that with Damon. But I currently think Elena is stupid and on drugs, that's probably a mean thing to say but yeah, my current thoughts. But another CW show, Reign has a beautiful love triangle. Like this show is going to be all drama and it makes history and I quote "sexy". Mary has to do a lot for her country but will her heart get in the way? I mean both of the guys in her life are pretty attractive but which would you choose or even consider being with?

It's all a matter of perspective i guess. Besides the love triangle isn't officially going, things are just you know alluded to. It's funny because there are a lot more shows too that teens are into that have theses triangles. Like Teen Wolf, and Awkward, heck even Glee had them.

As for real life love triangles, there are probably millions. I could talk about people that I know and their relationships or the people that I like, but it doesn't really matter. Those who need to know, know.

Mr. Pumpkin - Halloween (SA Wardega)

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Happy Halloween!!! 

Are you looking at me?

Do you ever just find yourself in  a situation where everyone is staring at you? Like why on earth would they be staring? Whenever someone stares at me I think of every possible thing in my head that they could possibly be staring at and freak out. I hate feeling like people are judging me, I know they do but I don't really want to feel them judging me. They say when you stare at a monkey, it goes crazy. I think I'm the monkey in this situation. I read once that in France people stare at other people openly to admire their beauty and it isn't considered creepy or rude. But I don't care who you are if you stare at me, I'm usually sending death threats in my head.

Imagine this: you see your crush and of course they look cute as always. You're just admiring the way they look, because anybody you have a crush on has got to be hot... Not realizing you're practically drooling, not cute by the way, when your crush turns and catches you staring. I'm going to tell you now that there are different types of staring and unless you want it to be super obvious that you like this person you better be discreet.  I mean there is  a difference between staring at a guy friend and staring at a guy you want to date.

I really should apologize in advance for the staring that I do, because I stare a lot.... Even if I'm not actually staring at you, it happens. I'll go from staring at an attractive guy, to staring at someone's shoe, to staring at my friends hair, to staring at someone's shirt. I even stare at the ceiling which confuses many people but I guess I find the answers to everything up there. But I always, always look at someone when they are talking to me or I'm talking to them. If I can look you in the eye you can do the same.

I absolutely cannot stand when people wear their freaking sunglasses inside a building. Like is that really necessary? Does it make you feel cool or something? I used to think it was stupid when teachers told students to take them off inside the classroom, well now I understand why. If you wear sunglasses inside there's about a strong chance I'm judging you. I could tolerate a medical condition, and maybe a couple times where you just "forgot" to take them off. But if you do it consistently, it's ridiculous. I can't tell if you're staring at me or the poster behind me, and then I'm just not sure whether to acknowledge you or ignore you without being rude. Does looking at someone while wearing sunglasses inside make you feel powsrful or something. Because it just pisses me off.

I just love it when a teacher stares at you expecting you to know the answer, hey I can stare back so this might last a while.  Do you ever just feel like staring contests can definitely be in your favor? I suck at them but against the right people they work for me. But hey if a guy has really gorgeous eyes, I have no problem staring back, unless they are like way to intense that it's scary. Those moments when you accidentally glance up, making eye contact with someone you don't like, I hate those.

Sorry about my random little rant, I hope you enjoyed it.

Sex & Violence

Maybe I have captured your attention with that title. But fear not this isn't some racy discussion about the topics of sex and bad things about it or how sex leads to violence or that if you have sex you will die. Sorry that's a run on sentence and a little bit of a mean girls reference, but seriously I read a book and that was its title....

What?!! I read a book? I know, it's crazy and sadly it's actually been awhile since I posted something I could call a decent book "review" or you know recommendation.  So I hope you guys appreciate this one, because this book was different for me.

Now the book is called, Sex & Violence, by Carrie Mesrobian. What threw me off though was the fact that the story was well written and in a guy's point of view and not many people can pull off the opposite sex view with out it being too biased but Mesrobian pulled it off. I have read some pretty disturbed books that were in a guy's point of view, and some times they switch. It was harder to tell which characters were more into sex than the other because both view points were pretty bad.

So anyways the story is about a teenage boy named Evan Carter and how he was used to being the "Freaking new guy" and basically had the ability to charm his way into most girls pants since he never really stayed in one place for so long. Well his actions kind of get back at him, let's just say that karma kicked his ass, and his actions also bring harm unto a girl he get's involved with. After experiencing Karma, Evan's dad moves them to a safer more permanent location where he can recover and learn more about himself. Not many guys can admit that they are assholes or slutty whores but Evan admits it right off the back and from the beginning of the story you watch him grow and change as a person. That sounds kind of corny and he isn't some butterfly experiment but his experiences are kind of thought provoking.  In this book about a summer of last chances and recovering there is a lot to be loved.

I love this quote alluding to Evan's father:

"He treated stuff like that how I'd imagine a father would treat his daughter's mentstrual cycle-with caution and distance." 

I think anybody could read this book, it's a little sensitive but it isn't a bad read so check it out. 

What is life?

 Talk about being  unlucky. Having Microsoft word go crazy on you and lock you out of all of your files, well that's just kind of unfortunate, especially when you have so much crap due!It's just so depressing and sad and I just want to cry. But I won't, because no one has time for little baby tears. I guess I'll have to figure things out so I can get everything done, but I really wanted to blog. I've got a planner full of assignments and I'm managing my time out so I can have a little fun. Music, running, studying, oh the stress. I was really looking forward to working on my book too, but that's hard to do when the documents aren't working in your favor. You know this probably wasn't a good option, but anyways I went on Twitter because I was bored and tired of complaining to myself. Only to find more people complaining for themselves. It's okay every now and then to see that, but when your whole timeline is filled with people talking about giving up, and complaining, it makes you want to work harder. When it seems like everyone is all depressed, you just need something to cheer you up. So here is something cute to make your day!

Bittersweet

Have you ever tasted dark chocolate before? Sweet, yet bitter, like you don't know whether to hate it or love it so you just kind of choose to love it. At least that's how I see things. Here are a couple things I currently view as bittersweet:

• The Fault in our Stars, by John Green. 

• A beautiful story where the main character Hazel, basically deals with the fact that she has cancer and challenges the way people view certain things in life. Like are there really things called Cancer perks? It's a novel about falling in love and like most teenage girls will tell you, if you read it you most likely will cry. You know if you don't cry it doesn't make you any less human, it just means that the story didn't have the same emotional effect on you that it had for other people. It is worth reading, after listening to so many good reviews I decided to read it and I don't regret it. The main character makes me what to change the way I approach things, makes me want to not give up.
• Fast Six 
• You know the movie where people drive fast cars and you know make lot's of money and do cool action tricks and such. 
• Bittersweet because Han loses his girlfriend (spoiler alert) and Don gets back with the wrong girl. Of course to everyone else Don made the right choice, but to me, no he picked the wrong girl.

• Glee
• You know that television show where a lot of people claim, ruins all their favorite songs.
• (Personally I think some of their covers are better)
• In reality I think the show actually helps get new music out to viewers, but if any of Lorde's songs get put on that show I'll be upset. I actually heard the Glee version of Wings by Little Mix and that is how I started listening to them. 
• But I'm trying to decide whether or not I really want to watch it again like....
• Also, I think that the tribute episode to Cory Monteith is going to be really sad regardless of the fact that I stopped really watching the show two seasons ago. I just like getting a proper goodbye. 
• Cancelled Abc Family shows
• There are quite a few:
• The Nine Lives Of Chloe King
• Which I guess isn't so bad because for closure they did put up the never before released script. I guess I'll have to read one of these days. It's too soon. Just kidding it's never too soon.
• The Lying Game
• I was actually kind of in to this show. Then I read on Wikipedia it was cancelled.
• a couple others who didn't catch on to me.
• You know the shows with those names that just don't ring a bell. You remember watching them just not really caring what they were about. 
• Not knowing whether or not you are going to regret something. Life is all about taking chances so it's hard. You don't want to have any regrets but what you regret now might mean nothing later. Things happen for a reason, but you know you never really want to admit you made a mistake . 
• Being a Senior... 
• I feel like thats self explanitory.
• When skinny girls call themselves fat:

I never thought my words would mean anything to anyone else. Until I shared some of the things that I wrote with people. I sometimes just sit in class and randomly write out my thoughts because sometimes, those crazy thoughts, can be super overwhelming. If the mind of a teenager is 90% song lyrics, than the other 10% for me, is definitely thoughts about life. I'm going to try my best to get better at sharing my thoughts, because I really am a happy person. I just have a lot of deep thinking moments that can sound super depressing.