Struggling to write

What's this a blog? Wait something I'm actually supposed to update and write on every now and then. Oops guess I've been forgetting to do something. Wait I actually haven't forgotten, I've been avoiding it. I think one of the reasons why is partially because I feel like I have nothing to say. I feel like most of my thoughts are just relevant enough for twitter, instagram or even a comment section on YouTube but not worthy enough for a blog. I'm sorry about that but from the view counter I don't really think anyone has been checking out my blog in a long time so it's all good.  Atleast I can say I've been into some new things recently and I'm also on the quest for a job so stay tuned for new things coming. What do you think would happen if I became a YouTube video blogger? Probably nothing, I don't think I'd have that many views. I still am on that journey to be AN AUTHOR so hopefully i can finally come up with some coherent thoughts that can be made into a novel sometime soon.
Future blogposts:

1. The Janoskians. (They are awesome)
2. Getting a job, ( You know those normal people who actually have to work for a living)
3. Writing - hopefully we'll see some progress there
4. Many more things but so I don't get your hopes up we can just some stuff.

Also I have been reading a lot but I usually document that more on goodreads  now so check out what I'm reading. It should be in a sidebar somewhere.

The Future (Revisited)

Not too long ago I wrote an article about the future: 

 The Future

So plain and simple: The future is scary. I'd like to say otherwise and be all wide eyed and optimistic but I can't because it scares me. Anything can happen and nothing is guaranteed and honestly you just don't know what you're going to get.  People say that they can't wait until the future for things to happen, but the future is now and things don't just happen, you have to make them happen....(for the rest click here)

 

 

But today is the present, the future is tomorrow and yesterday is the past. This is your life and it's crazy how fast time flies sometimes.  So here's some things that happened in the recent past.

1.  Prom-  There was dancing, cute dresses, a chocolate fountain and good music. Also not to mention all the profile pictures that changed because everyone just looked so awesome.
2. Grad Bash- Fun times in a theme park with your graduating class, definitely a fun time
3. Graduation- From high school of course. The class of 2014 did it and I am delighted to say I was one of them. It's crazy to think that four years just went by and pretty soon another four years will go by and that's college. I hope to make the most of it. It's sad knowing that I didn't know half the people in my senior class. Like congrats but I don't know you. But it was seriously just time to be done with high school, no surprises there. It might be a pretty cliche thing to say but, this is literally just the beginning. Our lives don't end with high school, there are so many great things ahead. 

I think that in life we are given some great opportunities and we just need to take them. This isn't a long post so sorry for that but there will be more soon. It's summer, I've got time.

 

 

Teachers: What do they actually teach you?

Have you ever gone to class  and just wondered what the heck you were doing listening to some old person lecturing you about things you'll probably never think about outside of school? Sometimes I'll finish a class and then I'll just wonder to myself what I actually learned. It seems like a waste to go to school and feel like you didn't really learn anything. But I think the best lessons were the ones your teachers didn't have in the lesson plans. The life advice they give you because they actually have experience and they want you to succeed in the world. The things they tell you because they actually care.

In life you'll more than likely always meet someone who is more experienced in certain areas than you are. Whether it's school, a sport, a job or even a hobby, there's someone out there you could learn from. Those people that share their skill set with you, and try to make you better are just like the teachers you try to make you more educated so you can be successful in life. But sometimes you just can't help but think in your head when your listening to some sixty year old person going on and on about how they used to this and that ans what not, that they are wasting your time. Thinking about it now, I don't think those people tell these stories because they enjoy hearing their voice and want to make young people suffer through a history lesson. Maybe they want us to learn from their experiences and for us to be able to grow from them. They say history repeats itself and that's why you need to be educated on it, so you can see that cycle.


You know that metaphor everyone uses to describe life? Something about it being a roller coaster with many twists and turns and you never know what you are going to get? One of my coaches said to me, that some people say the prefer Merry go rounds, because they just go in circles. That is basically like saying that they just do the same things over and over and they do it because they know there will be no surprises. They also said that some people pick the roller coaster they get on to with the choices they make especially if they know what the consequences are going to be. But there are always those people who don't get on the ride at all because they are really  too afraid to take any risks, so they hold themselves back. When I look back on my life I don't want to be that person who didn't get on the ride at all. I want to be the person that created opportunities and actually did things whether or not they sucked or were totally awesome, I want to do them. 

Life tip #4: To have some excitement every once in awhile. You know when you haven't done anything interesting in along time, it's alright to live a little and do something fun and unexpected. No need to break the law, just get some adrenaline pumping. You know, fork somebodies yard or do some ding dong ditching.

Sometimes you don't have to be in a classroom to learn and experience things. More life tips to come...

Something about feelings.

When someone makes you the happiest person and the saddest person at the same time, that's when it's real. That's when it’s worth something.
— Chuck Bass (@ltsChuck) May 7, 2014

Have you ever met someone and it's like all of a sudden nothing else matters? Like those moments your with them just feel so fantastic that all the bad things in your world just disappear. I picked the tweet above to share because hey, it's Chuck Bass and because it just feels incredibly true. In life I feel like things that are the most worth it are the things that are challenging and difficult. Like right now writing this blog post is challenging because I have a bunch of things on my mind that I want to say but the backspace button seems to be getting a workout. But who knows this post might actually be worth it.

I hate watching movies where  a character ends up with a happy ending even though they didn't really deserve it. Like no where in the storyline do they even attempt to try and in the end they turn out to be the hero or they have a passionate kiss with the so called love of their life. To me that's boring! Where's the excitement, the drama, the tear jerking moments that  actually mean something?I honestly like movies that make me cry because that means I had to have felt something. In the end I think everyone just wants to feel something. Even if that something is pain.

Recently I did meet someone who may have changed my life a little bit, maybe more than that. Not only did they help me learn more about myself but they also made me feel really happy. But what really got me is the fact that I don't think this person really realized how truly amazing they are. I'm not huge on talking but when I do talk it's with someone that I like. But when I'm not talking, I'm observing because I like to watch the little things that people do. Sometimes cute little things people do naturally are the things that make them stand out the most. When people point out your flaws or say negative things about you, it's easy to get stuck those ideas. To think that no one would ever really get to see the real you because all they can see are those negative things. I feel like when someone makes you happy those "flaws" don't matter they just make that person ten times better. With me I have the hardest time showing affection and or sharing my feeling because I'm so afraid that when people discover the real me, they'll realize I'm bad for them. So I've spent a lot of my time pushing people that I actually like away, or I just don't let them in.I But that's my fault and I want to change it. If I keep hiding behind this fear that no one will ever like me if they get to know me, no one is ever going to like me because I won't let them. I just want people to be happy, thats ll that matters to me.

Maybe that's why I don't like movies with a happy ending, because I 'm afraid I'll never get one of my own.

Time...flies

It's seriously been  long time. Time really does fly which is crazy. One Tree Hill, is still my favorite show honestly I learned so many things from it. It was a show that I had to share with many people because it was amazing. It is the best CW show. I liked Gossip Girl before I watched One Tree Hill, but watching One Tree Hill was just way more addictive. But seriously It's the oldest story in the book. One day you are just seventeen planning your future hoping for the best and without even realizing it those days of planning are behind you and you've grown so much. Yesterday I was seventeen and now I'm not.
Sure maybe I wish I would have blogged more and sent my book off to be published but there is still my friends plenty of time for that.

Maybe today's post will be short, or you know maybe not. See it's up to me and that's how I like it. I like just typing away feeling free behind the keyboard. I feel driven and sometimes find myself deleting many of the things I say. If you ever see me on twitter you probably won't see many tweets at a time because it takes me twenty minutes to post the perfect one. But what is life? It's my birthday and I just feel so happy. The funny thing is though, I've never really been one to advertise it and really want attention. Sure I'd bring it up, but most of my friends already knew.  But the crazy thing is, is just how much I've changed and my perspective on the world. I feel like I see things differently from people and you know I just want to share that.

Be happy, see the world,
xoxo Mercedes

The Future...

So plain and simple: The future is scary. I'd like to say otherwise and be all wide eyed and optimistic but I can't because it scares me. Anything can happen and nothing is guaranteed and honestly you just don't know what you're going to get.  People say that they can't wait until the future for things to happen, but the future is now and things don't just happen, you have to make them happen.

You can't just live life scared to go outside your bubble because you it's not guaranteed that you'll stay safe. On the other hand living impulse by impulse might just leave you sixteen and pregnant or I don’t know dead. Where's the happy medium? It's so sad when that person who has worked their butt off their whole life and then when they decide to have a little fun something bad happens. It's even more frustrating when that person who has done every impulsive act imaginable, nothing bad ever happens to them. It's like there are rules and exceptions to those rules and then you're just left wondering where you fit in to it all. Life I tell you is just a complicated thing, and it really hasn't even started yet.

Every birthday since I turned thirteen I want to say my parents have told me that I'm one year closer to being tried as an adult. I know that sounds really depressing and also looks like they think the worst of me but honestly, they were being realistic. It only takes one stupid mistake nowadays to get yourself in trouble and you have to be aware of what you’re doing. Like when you get your driver's license it's the most exciting thing in the world, no more waiting for your parents to pick you up. But every time you get behind the wheel you have to know that you could be putting other people in harm’s way if you don't pay attention. It's so stressful knowing that something that can be so fun can be dangerous as well. Sometimes I wish my future self would send me text messages of what not to do because I really don't want to mess up. Like you never know when that important English essay you have is just going to delete itself the night before it's due.

Whenever I think about the future, I think about the show One Tree Hill. It has nine seasons and with every season you just never know what’s going to happen.  My favorite characters from that show are Nathan Scott and Haley; they’re this couple that goes through so many different hardships that you just don’t think will make it in the end. Watching the show makes you realize there is no age limit you have to be to fall in love or become successful, you can get all that by going after what you want. I watch these characters grow and become better versions of themselves and I just wish that I can do the same. The point is, you never know what's going to happen, whether it’s falling in love and getting married at seventeen or being your own boss by the age of twenty two, anything can happen.

Sometimes I just wonder how my grandparents made it this far in life because it just seems like so much. But you know I might be scared but I'm also not afraid of going through life. I know that things are going to happen and many of them might suck, but there is light at the end of the tunnel.

Hey It's me again!!!

 Life happens...

Well it's a new year seeing as the last time I blogged it was 2013, and now January is close to being over and I realized that I really miss blogging. Not that anything I ever had to say was that interesting , it was just fun to let it all out. This isn't a book I'm writing that has a certain plot or some article for journalism that has to be school appropriate, this it just me expressing what I have to say.It so often surprises me that sometimes people can even relate to it. Now I'm not going to make it my New Year's resolution to blog more, because let's face it, I'd probably ignore it anyway. Whenever I  feel inspired and not half asleep though, I'll blog.

Hopefully my writing flows a  little easier and you're not just reading a bunch of my jumbled up thoughts, because my thoughts get a little too crazy and confusing. What you don't understand is that, there are so many things that I want to say, some of them I'm just afraid to. I don't want to limit myself but then I don't want to share too much.

Why I am totally dateable…

In journalism we were told to write a persuasive article about any topic. My friend and I were joking around about what to write so I decided to write a fake article . Who writes fake articles? Lame people who have no life, but whatever. Here is what I came up with.:

Why I am totally date-able…



Did you know that in the world of high-school dating, freshman girls and senior boys have the highest chances of successfully getting together? But their relationship usually treads between the borders of good and just plain creepy.  If you didn’t already know that, I’m guessing you can look around your school hallways and find the girls that are usually called “baby hoes”, just know they didn’t get those names because of their kind hearts. So why is it, that many senior girls are often single? One website claims it’s because they’re “picky” and won’t give certain people a chance. Yeah, that’s probably true because after four years of dealing with the same guys, they probably just know what they want in a relationship. After being taught over and over again that boys just want sex and that’s all they want, it’s amazing that girls still date. But thinking about it that's not really true because, girls think about sex just like any guy except they will probably lie about it or freak out that you asked them that sort of question. Besides, if you don’t feel comfortable enough talking about sex, you most likely shouldn’t be having it in the first place.

Chances are that if you are reading this you are probably single. Well guess what so am I, and have been for the past seventeen years. So instead of letting an opportunity go by, I’m just going to tell you why I am totally date-able. Sadly I don’t think saying “because I’m awesome,” will be convincing enough and it makes it sound like I think too highly of myself. On a serious note, I’m not really a mean person and I don’t have a “type”.  So maybe I do have a “type”, but let’s just say you fit it. Now sometimes music choices can make or break a relationship, but I don’t really care what you listen to as long as your little heart is happy. If you want to listen to Taylor Swift be my guest. But  I really don’t hate on people’s music choices but I just don’t understand many of them, if you listen to Selena Gomez though you’re winning.I'll pretty much listen to anything because I like giving songs a chance before I decide I absolutely hate them.  I’ll sing with you, really I’m a bad singer, but in the end I’m willing to look stupid as long as it’s fun. I enjoy horror movies, and by enjoy I mean I like hiding behind pillows and  jumping from my seat when things happen. So at least if we watch one together you can get a good laugh because my reactions are pretty hilarious. I’m really honest, if you do something stupid, chances are I’m going to tell you and not to make you feel dumb either. AlsoI like being right, but I don’t mind being wrong, I’m not going to explode with anger if you know something I don’t. Just don’t question my intelligence and I won’t question yours.               

My personality type is type B, which means I’m pretty relaxed and easy going so at least you know I’m not going to freak out at a drop of a dime. I’m kind of a mix between type A and B, but I think being angry and holding grudges is a waste of time.  I’m a runner, if that says something, it says it all. I put in a lot of energy to run, which is why I really don’t get into fights and I stay pretty relaxed.  Also I like to work out and being healthy and I am not one of those girls who complain about their weight. If you think I’m not skinny enough, tough luck kid, go date a toothpick.  If you decide I’m worth dating, just know I do like sarcasm but I limit it so you know how I really feel. But I like discussions and debates, on simple things. I don’t talk politics and I really don’t discriminate against other people’s religious views. I like to read, which means I have patience and I’m pretty committed, but maybe reading has nothing to do with either of those things. If you like reading we can have discussions about books! Even though that sounds really lame, and would probably make us losers.  I’m not afraid to say what’s on my mind or what I’m feeling, in fact if we’re going to be losers , we will be the most amazing losers in the world.  I’d do anything for the people I care about, and chances are, if we’re dating I probably would have to like you at least a little bit. I'm a really, really good listener.  If you called me in the middle of the night or the middle of the day saying you needed someone to talk to I’d answer, always. If you needed a person to lean on I’d be over in a minute. Just know I can only bench press seventy five pounds so don’t expect to be throwing all of your weight at me...but I would be there.

I’m a girl, so chances are you think all girls have some crazy freak bipolar tendencies, and I’m here to tell you that that is sometimes true. I like to keep my emotions plain and simple and I don’t need to act sad to get people’s attention. Ask me what’s wrong and I’ll tell you. If I say something like, “I don’t want to talk about it,” that damn right means “I really want to talk about it and for you to listen, but I don’t want you to think I’m annoying.” I don’t do leading people on, that crap gets old and after a while even little kids stop chasing butterflies. I really like laughing and I enjoy making other people laugh, but I really don't consider myself funny at all. If you laugh it’s usually when I’m not trying and my favorite thing to see is a smile on someone’s face. If you’re smiling like a creep though, we might need to talk.

There are many things a person can fear, I’m probably scared of a 101 things but you’ll never know what they are unless you ask. If you ask me for my number that’s like a guaranteed yes, because you asked and the only other guy who has asked me was like my coaches son. I’m a pretty good multi-tasking, I wrote this while I was working on my English homework, aren’t I cool?  You know how when you meet someone, something about them can just stand out and you know you like them? Well the first thing I notice about a person is their smile and their eyes. I like guys who aren’t afraid to show emotion and I just like happy people. But, rarely will I ever mention to a guy that they have nice eyes, and if I do I’m either on some weird medication, or I like that person. It really doesn’t matter what color eyes you have, although I have a favorite. I hope my personality makes up for brown eyes because let’s face it, they’re basic.

Drama is pretty pointless, and I don’t even like to go near it. I wouldn’t even take the class. Sure after watching Mean Girls, I kind of wish I could see that type of drama but no, I don’t even want to be a part of it. It get's annoying when other people get involved in personal things and that is something I don't have patience for.

They are probably many different reasons that I’m date-able, but I’m trying not to sound too pretentious. But I hope you found what I had to say at least a little bit interesting. This probably wasn't proof read.  I try not to bore people to death, sorry but I’m not sorry if I did.

Control

When people get dumped, I don't think they are really that mad because it was embarrassing and that they really liked that person and expected a happily ever after. Well, okay maybe that's possible, but I think people are more upset because they didn't do it  themselves. Because who likes being beat at their own game? Sorry, but if someone gives you a warning signal that they don't have feelings for you anymore, take that hint and end it. Otherwise don't go crying when they do.You see it in the movies all the time guy/girl dumps significant other, significant other get's upset cries, screams and shouts then says something like, "I was going to break up with you anyways". Well you could have but you didn't so it kind of sucks for you right now.

I'm honestly not trying to sound cynical but, it's the control aspect of the sitiuation. No one likes to be out of control. You know those people who are afraid of love and want nothing to do with it? The one's who say they could live with a bunch of hook ups and be fine with it. Many times those people are just afraid of getting hurt. You can't control someone else's feelings and you can't stop them from hurting you. No one wants to get hurt. If you do enjoy getting hurt, you should see someone about that.

Imagine this, you're a teenager who just got their driver's license and it's a big deal. You finally get to drive and you have all this freedom. Now imagine after a few months of driving you're parents tell you that you can't drive for some silly reason and that you have to ride the bus. Tragic, right? There isn't exactly anything wrong with riding the bus, someone drives you around for free?  But it's like you lost something you actually had control over. You could hop in a car and go wherever you wanted, you were behind the wheel and it was all up to you. Having someone else behind the wheel sucks. See I know I can't drive because of my pain medicine and it just makes me sad because I love driving myself places.

Today my nurse asked me if I had to go "potty". I seriously wanted to Gibbs slap him across the back of his head. Like how old do I look? I hate doctors, hospitals and because they seem to be the only one's who can diagnose me and I still don't know what's wrong. I don't like taking medicine because I don't like the idea of relying on something that is only going the mask the problem and not get rid of it. I don't like feeling weak or pathetic and that is why I rarely tell people what the heck is going on. I feel like if someone cares enough about you, they will ask the questions, actually try to find things out. But I do talk to the people I care about because I would never want them to worry. I've only been seriously upset because I couldn't control something and that was my grandmother having Breast Cancer. No one told me she had had it for  a year. No one told me she had surgery. No one told me until they thought I needed to know. Now that may have been a good call but at the time I found out I just wish I could have done something important that could help. I had never taken cancer as a joke but now I take it even more seriously. Breast Cancer Awareness is one of the reasons why my favorite color is pink.

I believe in romance and happy endings. I think that one day the answers will come. That's why I enjoy blogging and writing. It's the one thing I can control, I can create my own happy endings. Somethings are out of our grasps and we just have to go with the flow. But everyone get's afraid sometimes. I can't control how you'll react to this but I hope it means something to you because every post means something to me.

Fears and Insecurities

What's your biggest fear, is it knowing that people might actually see the real you? How many times have you gone back inside you house to change an outfit or a hairstyle because you felt like it wasn't good enough?  Once? Twice? How many times have you done something different just to impress someone and they still didn't notice a thing?

Let's start with a word:

Insecure:

1.

(of a person) not confident or assured; uncertain and anxious.

So let's say being insecure is natural because hey, nobody's perfect but people still strive to be perfect.  Sometimes for themselves and sometimes for someone else. You see I would have never really thought to write something about insecurities because I wouldn't want people looking for all of mine. But one of my friends told me I should talk about them. It's funny because out of all the people I know she would never strike me as someone who is insecure. If fact, after many hilarious conversations I wish I could have recorded, she definitely is not. 

Here is a fun little question, How many times have you taken like fifty pictures of yourself and then decided they weren't good enough because of this or that? Think about it, I can randomly delete all the photos on my phone and not worry about, because they were all selfies no one was ever going to see. It's not the fact that I enjoy taking pictures of myself, okay the stupid ones yeah, I can just never take the perfect picture. There are people who post pictures just so they can have attention brought to themselves, and I give them props because I couldn't do it.

One thing that used to piss me so much, was listening to girls complain and complain about their weight. Most of them weren't even close to fat, so I basically decided they were conceited, stuck up brats who only cared about the way they looked. But they weren't, they were just insecure because they felt their weight was a flaw that people would judge them about.  Think about the movie Mean Girls, and if you say you've never watched it before, please let me punch you in the face. Anyways The Plastics were all just  insecure mean girls who wanted everyone to believe that they were perfect. Regina was concerned with her weight so that made it easy for Cady to manipulate her. Cady was insecure about her intelligence so she started acting stupid to get Aaron to tutor her, only to find out later that he liked her better when she was herself. Gretchen just felt like she had to be apart of something so she did end up joining the "cool asians." Even the the movie was very sexual, funny, and filled with backstabbing it did teach a really good lesson. I mean on Wednesdays we wear pink, some people just want to be apart of something.

It's really easy to feel insecure, I said in another post before, that when people stare at me I just think about every flaw they could be seeing. Maybe it's because I can't read minds, but I sure as hell would love to know why people stare at me. Insecurities kind of go hand in hand with fears, because most of the time you're afraid that people will find out the things that make you insecure.

But honestly everyone is beautiful.

The Kissing booth...

        Reputations, rumors, fights, romance, high school, and a first kiss.For some people the have their first kiss in like elementary school and it's no big deal because boys and girls have cooties and it wasn't serious anyways. For others it's that first relationship in junior high where both the boy and the girl are shy and it's going to suck no matter what because it's just awkward and neither of you know what you are doing. Or maybe that's just what I've read in books but then again, they were talking about sex so... Sorry if that doesn't apply to your experiences. It's sometimes very rare to come across someone in HIGH SCHOOL who hasn't had their first kiss yet. If their friends are jerks they probably get made fun of, " what you've never kissed anyone?", "my god you need to get laid", and "you are missing out", sure none of that's demeaning or depressing but it gets annoying. Talking from experience by the way, because I'm just lame like that.

      So what do you do when you haven't had your first kiss and one of your friends need you to fill their spot in a kissing booth? You read the book "The Kissing Booth", by Beth Reekles to find out. I'm kind of kidding but seriously you should read the book. It's got an awesome love triangle in it too. For the main character it's all about choosing the right guy and sometimes choosing between your best friend and a guy that makes you feel even more special than your friend does is hard. All the drama, it all starts from one kiss. Well the feelings were there before the kiss but yeah, the kiss started it all. I think I laughed through a lot of this book because it was funny and exciting and totally awkward all at the same time. My mom often asks me what book I'm reading so that she can 'bond' and 'talk about it' with me, but I read the strangest books and she reads to slow so that doesn't really work out. This book was really good and I would recommend it to anyone and it was written by a seventeen year old girl so props to her. But imagine watching some awkward sex scene on Vampire Diaries or The Secret life and having your grandma walk in. It's just very uncomfortable.

     So yeah, read the book because  you'll enjoy it.

The Wall?

What is the wall? How does it effect the way in which people go about their daily lives? Is the wall just some reference to Facebook or something? Am I just talking about a tall, brick, vertical structure that are usually used to set some type of boundary? Is a wall just a barrier that was meant to be broken down after certain periods of time?

 What the wall means to me

Whenever I think of a wall I think about running and being stuck. I feel like once your there you can't get past it. A wall was put up for a reason, obviously you weren't meant to get by. When I think of walls I think of things that people were meant to overcome. Putting up a wall isolates people, it separates you from things that you could be apart of. Putting up a wall means you want to keep something or someone out, it's like you are trying to protect yourself from something and sometimes not letting people in can cause problems. I feel like for writers, walls can represent some type of writer's block that can feel impassable. But in the end if people couldn't overcome writer's block there would be no stories to read! But fortunately people have overcome it.

"The walls came  tumbling down in the city that we loved," sometimes the safest places can fall apart. We put ourselves behind walls because we don't want people hurting us, because when they do you feel weak. Once that weakness is felt we create even bigger barriers. It's a hard thing to do, let someone in. You never know who to trust or who is really going to hear you. I put up my walls because there are many times where I'm just embarrassed. I'm using this blog to share some of my thoughts with the world and it helps. I'm breaking down my own walls because I'm not trying to be stuck in a place where no one understands me. I want to be understood and I want to have a voice. One thing I keep telling myself is, what happens if I publish a book and the people closet to me judge my creativity? It would be awkward, but I'm not trying to have some anonymous pen name. Hiding isn't for me. That quote was from the song, Pompeii, and it's a really great song. It has a great message.

Sometimes you just have to close your eyes and see where you are. You could stay trapped behind your own walls or you can open yourself up to new experiences and try new things. Learn to let people in because in the end you don't want to feel alone. Be an optimist even when it seems like that safe place you built has been destroyed. You will still be able to make it. We build these walls, and we can break them down.

A wall doesn't just have to be a barrier it can be something that inspires you. Who doesn't enjoy decorating their bedroom walls because it makes the room more personal. Walls don't have to be bad things that hold you back. They can support you, you can build them, break them. You define what a wall means to you. Hey, even Miley Cyrus talks about breaking down walls in her song Wrecking ball.

Maze Runner by, James Dashner

"Shank"


" klunk"

" green bean"

" Med-jack"

"Shuck"

Words that make absolutely no sense to you or me but to the Gladers this is just part of their everyday language.The Glader's have been stuck in their own little world for two years. They have created a system that keeps people busy so that they don't have to worry about anyone going crazy. Panic, something that naturally comes to people when they are placed in very stressful situations where it seems like any hope of succeeding is impossible.The Gladers have hope, it's like they no that if they can just survive and maintain order, they will be able to make it out alive.

The Story

The book is about a boy named Thomas, who get's sent up through a box into a world full of young teenage boys who see Thomas's arrival as nothing out of the ordinary. For them it's been going on every month for the past two years. To the boys Thomas is just a green bean, a new guy. and will be put to work just like the rest of them. All the boys have one thing in common, they arrived through the box with no memory of where they came from, who their parents are, why they were sent. All they know is there first name, and that they should be scared.

Something is different for Thomas, because for him, this new world seems strangely familiar. He knows right away when that he wants to become a maze runner even if that means he has to face the horrendous grievers. No one really like's going out into the maze and for the people that do, it's a serious job and they don't plan on getting stuck out there.

The Glader's are just trying to find one way to escape. Their homestead has doors that close at the same time every single night to protect them from the dangers lurking outside. Outside those doors is a maze that changes it's pattern every single day. If you get stuck in that maze at night chances are, you aren't coming back.

My Thoughts...

This book has a lot  going on. When  first saw it I really didn't want to read it because I really thought it wasn't going to be worth it. It was different from all the girly books I read. I learned that it was going to be turned into a movie and that Dylan O' Brian was going to be in it so I then decided that I needed to read it. I really do prefer to read books before watching the movies. But I was also happy to learn that this book is apart of a series. It really is a good read. I learned very interesting words and I really started liking the characters. It shows you what lengths people are willing to go through to survive. Change can be a hard thing to deal with and the Gladers experience it. Would you be able to survive on your own with a bunch of teenagers? There has to be some order, someone leading the pack. A system has to be created and someone has to be smart enough to come up with it.