Looks can be deceiving ....

Often enough we judge people, places and things by the way they look. If this doesn't apply to you well then good for you. But if this idea does apply to you do you ever just wonder if people judge you the same way and it bothers you because unless you're a mind reader how are you supposed to know what that person is thinking?

One of my coworkers laughs at me all the time and she literally thinks it's adorable how I have all these thoughts and beliefs about people. She told me to give it a few years and the thought would go away. Today she was joking with me and said I was shallow but she later said that I'm honestly too young to be shallow.  She said that with time the things I wanted would be different, "see now you want a buff guy with an eight pack but when you're older you'll want a guy with a nice 401 k".  She has made it her life's mission to set me up with someone. But when I do judge people I really do feel bad sometimes. Looks can be deceiving just because someone looks like a 10 does not make them a good person at all.  Their personality is also a factor.  

I have another question for you. Do you ever just feel like everyone around you is in a relationship but you are the only single one? That's probably not true but hey it happens. Also we've discovered that I can't tell the difference between flirting and just talking to someone. When you don't have experience in that area it all sounds the same. I'm such a dork it's ridiculous. Now when it comes to crushes I like to shoot for the stars. I'll have a crush on someone I know I'll never have a chance with and that's just  how I like it.  It's strange and maybe it makes me shallow but it's just how I currently see things.

If you used to know me you need to know this now. I am way more confident than I was before. I've done things in the past few weeks that have even surprised myself. Before if you would have walked past me I would have just ignored you but now I say hello. I'm not afraid to talk and I'm not afraid to be myself. Confidence is key and I'm not tolerating mediocrity and or bull. Funny, it's like a lot of my post are about relationships and I know nothing about them.

Hopefully my next post will make much more sense.

xoxo
Mercedes. 

The Future (Revisited)

Not too long ago I wrote an article about the future: 

 The Future

So plain and simple: The future is scary. I'd like to say otherwise and be all wide eyed and optimistic but I can't because it scares me. Anything can happen and nothing is guaranteed and honestly you just don't know what you're going to get.  People say that they can't wait until the future for things to happen, but the future is now and things don't just happen, you have to make them happen....(for the rest click here)

 

 

But today is the present, the future is tomorrow and yesterday is the past. This is your life and it's crazy how fast time flies sometimes.  So here's some things that happened in the recent past.

1.  Prom-  There was dancing, cute dresses, a chocolate fountain and good music. Also not to mention all the profile pictures that changed because everyone just looked so awesome.
2. Grad Bash- Fun times in a theme park with your graduating class, definitely a fun time
3. Graduation- From high school of course. The class of 2014 did it and I am delighted to say I was one of them. It's crazy to think that four years just went by and pretty soon another four years will go by and that's college. I hope to make the most of it. It's sad knowing that I didn't know half the people in my senior class. Like congrats but I don't know you. But it was seriously just time to be done with high school, no surprises there. It might be a pretty cliche thing to say but, this is literally just the beginning. Our lives don't end with high school, there are so many great things ahead. 

I think that in life we are given some great opportunities and we just need to take them. This isn't a long post so sorry for that but there will be more soon. It's summer, I've got time.

 

 

Something about feelings.

When someone makes you the happiest person and the saddest person at the same time, that's when it's real. That's when it’s worth something.
— Chuck Bass (@ltsChuck) May 7, 2014

Have you ever met someone and it's like all of a sudden nothing else matters? Like those moments your with them just feel so fantastic that all the bad things in your world just disappear. I picked the tweet above to share because hey, it's Chuck Bass and because it just feels incredibly true. In life I feel like things that are the most worth it are the things that are challenging and difficult. Like right now writing this blog post is challenging because I have a bunch of things on my mind that I want to say but the backspace button seems to be getting a workout. But who knows this post might actually be worth it.

I hate watching movies where  a character ends up with a happy ending even though they didn't really deserve it. Like no where in the storyline do they even attempt to try and in the end they turn out to be the hero or they have a passionate kiss with the so called love of their life. To me that's boring! Where's the excitement, the drama, the tear jerking moments that  actually mean something?I honestly like movies that make me cry because that means I had to have felt something. In the end I think everyone just wants to feel something. Even if that something is pain.

Recently I did meet someone who may have changed my life a little bit, maybe more than that. Not only did they help me learn more about myself but they also made me feel really happy. But what really got me is the fact that I don't think this person really realized how truly amazing they are. I'm not huge on talking but when I do talk it's with someone that I like. But when I'm not talking, I'm observing because I like to watch the little things that people do. Sometimes cute little things people do naturally are the things that make them stand out the most. When people point out your flaws or say negative things about you, it's easy to get stuck those ideas. To think that no one would ever really get to see the real you because all they can see are those negative things. I feel like when someone makes you happy those "flaws" don't matter they just make that person ten times better. With me I have the hardest time showing affection and or sharing my feeling because I'm so afraid that when people discover the real me, they'll realize I'm bad for them. So I've spent a lot of my time pushing people that I actually like away, or I just don't let them in.I But that's my fault and I want to change it. If I keep hiding behind this fear that no one will ever like me if they get to know me, no one is ever going to like me because I won't let them. I just want people to be happy, thats ll that matters to me.

Maybe that's why I don't like movies with a happy ending, because I 'm afraid I'll never get one of my own.

Control

When people get dumped, I don't think they are really that mad because it was embarrassing and that they really liked that person and expected a happily ever after. Well, okay maybe that's possible, but I think people are more upset because they didn't do it  themselves. Because who likes being beat at their own game? Sorry, but if someone gives you a warning signal that they don't have feelings for you anymore, take that hint and end it. Otherwise don't go crying when they do.You see it in the movies all the time guy/girl dumps significant other, significant other get's upset cries, screams and shouts then says something like, "I was going to break up with you anyways". Well you could have but you didn't so it kind of sucks for you right now.

I'm honestly not trying to sound cynical but, it's the control aspect of the sitiuation. No one likes to be out of control. You know those people who are afraid of love and want nothing to do with it? The one's who say they could live with a bunch of hook ups and be fine with it. Many times those people are just afraid of getting hurt. You can't control someone else's feelings and you can't stop them from hurting you. No one wants to get hurt. If you do enjoy getting hurt, you should see someone about that.

Imagine this, you're a teenager who just got their driver's license and it's a big deal. You finally get to drive and you have all this freedom. Now imagine after a few months of driving you're parents tell you that you can't drive for some silly reason and that you have to ride the bus. Tragic, right? There isn't exactly anything wrong with riding the bus, someone drives you around for free?  But it's like you lost something you actually had control over. You could hop in a car and go wherever you wanted, you were behind the wheel and it was all up to you. Having someone else behind the wheel sucks. See I know I can't drive because of my pain medicine and it just makes me sad because I love driving myself places.

Today my nurse asked me if I had to go "potty". I seriously wanted to Gibbs slap him across the back of his head. Like how old do I look? I hate doctors, hospitals and because they seem to be the only one's who can diagnose me and I still don't know what's wrong. I don't like taking medicine because I don't like the idea of relying on something that is only going the mask the problem and not get rid of it. I don't like feeling weak or pathetic and that is why I rarely tell people what the heck is going on. I feel like if someone cares enough about you, they will ask the questions, actually try to find things out. But I do talk to the people I care about because I would never want them to worry. I've only been seriously upset because I couldn't control something and that was my grandmother having Breast Cancer. No one told me she had had it for  a year. No one told me she had surgery. No one told me until they thought I needed to know. Now that may have been a good call but at the time I found out I just wish I could have done something important that could help. I had never taken cancer as a joke but now I take it even more seriously. Breast Cancer Awareness is one of the reasons why my favorite color is pink.

I believe in romance and happy endings. I think that one day the answers will come. That's why I enjoy blogging and writing. It's the one thing I can control, I can create my own happy endings. Somethings are out of our grasps and we just have to go with the flow. But everyone get's afraid sometimes. I can't control how you'll react to this but I hope it means something to you because every post means something to me.

Mind reading.

One of my absolute favorite songs is, Hear me, by Imagine Dragons. It's funny because it's like my song, I find it very easy to relate to. Do you want to know why?That's simple, I just want people to hear me. No I want people to listen.The other song is called  Show me love, by The Wanted, it's a sad but inspirational song that really just makes me happy.

I'm no mind reader, I have no clue if people actually like the things I have to say or actually care to listen. Then when it seems like someone finally listens, it's like they are just judging me inside their little minds. Like can you not. I hate having to explain myself and I love the people who get me. I start about five different blog posts and delete most of them, and when I finally come up with a good idea, I'm just like nobody is going to read this because I wrote it. I blog about a lot of my personal experiences and the people I'm around, if you're close to me chances are I blogged about you. Don't worry if I like you it's usually funny, nice things. But  I will say I do feel bad for the friends I stopped talking to, the one's I cut off. I didn't exactly mean to, but I did and I had my reason's sadly.But the thing is, when I miss someone, I talk to them. I at least acknowledge them, just wanting them to know I do think about them.

I watched this move called Stuck in Love, and it was a depressing, happy, amazing movie that just kind of moved me. Lily Collins played a cynical romance hating nineteen year old and Logan Lerman played the sweet guy who just wanted to get to know her. She basically told the guys in the movie she would have sex with them because she knew they wanted to do it and she wanted to do it so it would be easy. Obviously she could read minds. Basically the moral of the story was that, the time makes the heart grow fonder.

I feel like this is about to get personal really fast so... Sorry. 

I needed distance, I'm pretty sure at one point everyone feels like they can't deal with something anymore, they're so over it. Isn't that why break ups happen? I doubt every guy a girl dates is  a cheating man whore. Just like I doubt that every girl the a guy goes out with is going to leave them for that guy's older/younger brother. No pretty sure decent people do exist. So I needed to seperate myself from the people who were causing me the most pain. They never hurt me or did me wrong, I just want to move on. It was like that much needed long run where as you're running, nothing  else matters. It's like being in a free world where it's ok if you look stupid while your jumping on your trampoline because no one is here to judge you. Now I'm no gymnast, but I was tired of doing flips for people who wouldn't do the same for me. I can't confide in someone who can't keep a secret and I can't comfort someone who won't take it. One time I told someone I'd never had my first kiss before and they just told me all my flaws and that I was pathetic. You know whats scary? I'm afraid that I almost believed them.

One of the reasons I love texting so much is because, I actually have time to think things through with out feeling rushed. There are moments when I'm just like, I could have said this or that, but really no need to over think a text message. Sure if my crush texted me I'd probably be a little excited-oh wait- he doesn't have my number. Because, well that would just make me happy.

"I got a thousand friends that follow me/
Just to read about my misery"

I don't want people to listen or talk to me because they think I'm miserable and need comforting. No that is not me. I'm a happy person who's just going through life,I've just come to not deal with certain things anymore. I'm a  teenage girl who just wishes people would understand the way I think about things.I like it when people talk to me because they want to.

But right now I'm just counting stars....

Love Triangles

You know sometimes there is this thing authors and writers like to make to, spice the stories up. It's my absolute favorite thing to be able to say "PLOT TWIST," but sometimes there make me angry. Most of the plot twist I have come to know are those little love triangles. Who doesn't love a little drama?
Seriously in many of the books I read, shows I watch,  movies that are pretty hot and even in real life love triangles are pretty much everywhere. Those Twilight fans who were all "team Edward" and " Team Jacob" and I'm just team can you not.  I'm not going to lie when I first read Twilight I was into it, into it enough to throw my book against the wall. But I was never really for a character. Of course when the movies came out people were going to pick the hotter guy, or the character they loved the most. Even in The Hunger Games people picked a team. Of course in the end Katniss picked the right guy and I was happy. It sucks when a character picks the wrong guy, or girl. It makes you so angry because it's like everything you hoped and wished for, fell through the cracks. Everyone was so mad when Katniss didn't pick Gale and I was all happy and giggling to myself, like that's right snitches I won this time. Granted I'm really weird so I actually did do that.

Did you ever watch the show THE NINE LIVES OF CHLOE KING, you know that ABC family show that got canceled after the first season? If so you already know that love triangle. I was so pissed when it got cancelled too. I finally had the time to read that released script of the never made movie. Talk about closure. I was finally able to smile and I was inspired to write like a movie/ television script. Of course I still want to write books but that script looked so simple. And guess what Chloe picked the right guy. If you have any idea of what I'm talking about check out the link: :The Nine Lives of Chloe King final script , if not carry on.  I won't say who she picks though you have to read it.

The one love triangle thing I currently hate is the one from The Vampire Diaries. Elena fell in love with the wrong guy. I'm one of those people that really liked Stefan and thought he was the perfect guy. I know people  who are like that with Damon. But I currently think Elena is stupid and on drugs, that's probably a mean thing to say but yeah, my current thoughts. But another CW show, Reign has a beautiful love triangle. Like this show is going to be all drama and it makes history and I quote "sexy". Mary has to do a lot for her country but will her heart get in the way? I mean both of the guys in her life are pretty attractive but which would you choose or even consider being with?

It's all a matter of perspective i guess. Besides the love triangle isn't officially going, things are just you know alluded to. It's funny because there are a lot more shows too that teens are into that have theses triangles. Like Teen Wolf, and Awkward, heck even Glee had them.

As for real life love triangles, there are probably millions. I could talk about people that I know and their relationships or the people that I like, but it doesn't really matter. Those who need to know, know.

Are you looking at me?

Do you ever just find yourself in  a situation where everyone is staring at you? Like why on earth would they be staring? Whenever someone stares at me I think of every possible thing in my head that they could possibly be staring at and freak out. I hate feeling like people are judging me, I know they do but I don't really want to feel them judging me. They say when you stare at a monkey, it goes crazy. I think I'm the monkey in this situation. I read once that in France people stare at other people openly to admire their beauty and it isn't considered creepy or rude. But I don't care who you are if you stare at me, I'm usually sending death threats in my head.

Imagine this: you see your crush and of course they look cute as always. You're just admiring the way they look, because anybody you have a crush on has got to be hot... Not realizing you're practically drooling, not cute by the way, when your crush turns and catches you staring. I'm going to tell you now that there are different types of staring and unless you want it to be super obvious that you like this person you better be discreet.  I mean there is  a difference between staring at a guy friend and staring at a guy you want to date.

I really should apologize in advance for the staring that I do, because I stare a lot.... Even if I'm not actually staring at you, it happens. I'll go from staring at an attractive guy, to staring at someone's shoe, to staring at my friends hair, to staring at someone's shirt. I even stare at the ceiling which confuses many people but I guess I find the answers to everything up there. But I always, always look at someone when they are talking to me or I'm talking to them. If I can look you in the eye you can do the same.

I absolutely cannot stand when people wear their freaking sunglasses inside a building. Like is that really necessary? Does it make you feel cool or something? I used to think it was stupid when teachers told students to take them off inside the classroom, well now I understand why. If you wear sunglasses inside there's about a strong chance I'm judging you. I could tolerate a medical condition, and maybe a couple times where you just "forgot" to take them off. But if you do it consistently, it's ridiculous. I can't tell if you're staring at me or the poster behind me, and then I'm just not sure whether to acknowledge you or ignore you without being rude. Does looking at someone while wearing sunglasses inside make you feel powsrful or something. Because it just pisses me off.

I just love it when a teacher stares at you expecting you to know the answer, hey I can stare back so this might last a while.  Do you ever just feel like staring contests can definitely be in your favor? I suck at them but against the right people they work for me. But hey if a guy has really gorgeous eyes, I have no problem staring back, unless they are like way to intense that it's scary. Those moments when you accidentally glance up, making eye contact with someone you don't like, I hate those.

Sorry about my random little rant, I hope you enjoyed it.

What is life?

 Talk about being  unlucky. Having Microsoft word go crazy on you and lock you out of all of your files, well that's just kind of unfortunate, especially when you have so much crap due!It's just so depressing and sad and I just want to cry. But I won't, because no one has time for little baby tears. I guess I'll have to figure things out so I can get everything done, but I really wanted to blog. I've got a planner full of assignments and I'm managing my time out so I can have a little fun. Music, running, studying, oh the stress. I was really looking forward to working on my book too, but that's hard to do when the documents aren't working in your favor. You know this probably wasn't a good option, but anyways I went on Twitter because I was bored and tired of complaining to myself. Only to find more people complaining for themselves. It's okay every now and then to see that, but when your whole timeline is filled with people talking about giving up, and complaining, it makes you want to work harder. When it seems like everyone is all depressed, you just need something to cheer you up. So here is something cute to make your day!

The Kissing booth...

        Reputations, rumors, fights, romance, high school, and a first kiss.For some people the have their first kiss in like elementary school and it's no big deal because boys and girls have cooties and it wasn't serious anyways. For others it's that first relationship in junior high where both the boy and the girl are shy and it's going to suck no matter what because it's just awkward and neither of you know what you are doing. Or maybe that's just what I've read in books but then again, they were talking about sex so... Sorry if that doesn't apply to your experiences. It's sometimes very rare to come across someone in HIGH SCHOOL who hasn't had their first kiss yet. If their friends are jerks they probably get made fun of, " what you've never kissed anyone?", "my god you need to get laid", and "you are missing out", sure none of that's demeaning or depressing but it gets annoying. Talking from experience by the way, because I'm just lame like that.

      So what do you do when you haven't had your first kiss and one of your friends need you to fill their spot in a kissing booth? You read the book "The Kissing Booth", by Beth Reekles to find out. I'm kind of kidding but seriously you should read the book. It's got an awesome love triangle in it too. For the main character it's all about choosing the right guy and sometimes choosing between your best friend and a guy that makes you feel even more special than your friend does is hard. All the drama, it all starts from one kiss. Well the feelings were there before the kiss but yeah, the kiss started it all. I think I laughed through a lot of this book because it was funny and exciting and totally awkward all at the same time. My mom often asks me what book I'm reading so that she can 'bond' and 'talk about it' with me, but I read the strangest books and she reads to slow so that doesn't really work out. This book was really good and I would recommend it to anyone and it was written by a seventeen year old girl so props to her. But imagine watching some awkward sex scene on Vampire Diaries or The Secret life and having your grandma walk in. It's just very uncomfortable.

     So yeah, read the book because  you'll enjoy it.

The Wall?

What is the wall? How does it effect the way in which people go about their daily lives? Is the wall just some reference to Facebook or something? Am I just talking about a tall, brick, vertical structure that are usually used to set some type of boundary? Is a wall just a barrier that was meant to be broken down after certain periods of time?

 What the wall means to me

Whenever I think of a wall I think about running and being stuck. I feel like once your there you can't get past it. A wall was put up for a reason, obviously you weren't meant to get by. When I think of walls I think of things that people were meant to overcome. Putting up a wall isolates people, it separates you from things that you could be apart of. Putting up a wall means you want to keep something or someone out, it's like you are trying to protect yourself from something and sometimes not letting people in can cause problems. I feel like for writers, walls can represent some type of writer's block that can feel impassable. But in the end if people couldn't overcome writer's block there would be no stories to read! But fortunately people have overcome it.

"The walls came  tumbling down in the city that we loved," sometimes the safest places can fall apart. We put ourselves behind walls because we don't want people hurting us, because when they do you feel weak. Once that weakness is felt we create even bigger barriers. It's a hard thing to do, let someone in. You never know who to trust or who is really going to hear you. I put up my walls because there are many times where I'm just embarrassed. I'm using this blog to share some of my thoughts with the world and it helps. I'm breaking down my own walls because I'm not trying to be stuck in a place where no one understands me. I want to be understood and I want to have a voice. One thing I keep telling myself is, what happens if I publish a book and the people closet to me judge my creativity? It would be awkward, but I'm not trying to have some anonymous pen name. Hiding isn't for me. That quote was from the song, Pompeii, and it's a really great song. It has a great message.

Sometimes you just have to close your eyes and see where you are. You could stay trapped behind your own walls or you can open yourself up to new experiences and try new things. Learn to let people in because in the end you don't want to feel alone. Be an optimist even when it seems like that safe place you built has been destroyed. You will still be able to make it. We build these walls, and we can break them down.

A wall doesn't just have to be a barrier it can be something that inspires you. Who doesn't enjoy decorating their bedroom walls because it makes the room more personal. Walls don't have to be bad things that hold you back. They can support you, you can build them, break them. You define what a wall means to you. Hey, even Miley Cyrus talks about breaking down walls in her song Wrecking ball.

Yes!

Maze Runner by, James Dashner

"Shank"


" klunk"

" green bean"

" Med-jack"

"Shuck"

Words that make absolutely no sense to you or me but to the Gladers this is just part of their everyday language.The Glader's have been stuck in their own little world for two years. They have created a system that keeps people busy so that they don't have to worry about anyone going crazy. Panic, something that naturally comes to people when they are placed in very stressful situations where it seems like any hope of succeeding is impossible.The Gladers have hope, it's like they no that if they can just survive and maintain order, they will be able to make it out alive.

The Story

The book is about a boy named Thomas, who get's sent up through a box into a world full of young teenage boys who see Thomas's arrival as nothing out of the ordinary. For them it's been going on every month for the past two years. To the boys Thomas is just a green bean, a new guy. and will be put to work just like the rest of them. All the boys have one thing in common, they arrived through the box with no memory of where they came from, who their parents are, why they were sent. All they know is there first name, and that they should be scared.

Something is different for Thomas, because for him, this new world seems strangely familiar. He knows right away when that he wants to become a maze runner even if that means he has to face the horrendous grievers. No one really like's going out into the maze and for the people that do, it's a serious job and they don't plan on getting stuck out there.

The Glader's are just trying to find one way to escape. Their homestead has doors that close at the same time every single night to protect them from the dangers lurking outside. Outside those doors is a maze that changes it's pattern every single day. If you get stuck in that maze at night chances are, you aren't coming back.

My Thoughts...

This book has a lot  going on. When  first saw it I really didn't want to read it because I really thought it wasn't going to be worth it. It was different from all the girly books I read. I learned that it was going to be turned into a movie and that Dylan O' Brian was going to be in it so I then decided that I needed to read it. I really do prefer to read books before watching the movies. But I was also happy to learn that this book is apart of a series. It really is a good read. I learned very interesting words and I really started liking the characters. It shows you what lengths people are willing to go through to survive. Change can be a hard thing to deal with and the Gladers experience it. Would you be able to survive on your own with a bunch of teenagers? There has to be some order, someone leading the pack. A system has to be created and someone has to be smart enough to come up with it.

Shut out

What is this book really about?

1. Who is the author? - Kody Keplinger. She wrote her first book, The DUFF, at the age of seventeen and is now a published author. The fact that she wrote the book while still in high school is pretty inspiring. Interesting fact: all the books she writes have a playlist, which I love.
2. A rivalry: A ten year rivalry between The Hamilton High football and soccer teams, respectively. In this book, Lissa has two love interests, Randy( football player) and Cash Sterling ( soccer player).  Most high rivalries are between opposing schools but not at Hamilton high. It starts off funny and somewhat innocent, egging cars, little pranks, but then things start getting dangerous and people start getting injured.
3. A booty call. Lissa starts the book off dating Randy but after he does things that she doesn't approve of, their relationship starts to get distant and weird. Broken promises and bribing a girl with flowers to have a good time and just leave, won't really put you in good standings with any girl.
4. Angry girlfriends. Make out sessions being interrupted by car egging, guys ditching their girlfriends to go pull pranks on the other teams, and guys acting like their girlfriend owes them sex. Girls never really like to be the second choice at all, in fact I bet if a guy asked a girl you know out and then asked you out, you would probably be offended because he wanted her before he wanted you. So how would you feel if a guy ditched you for a pranks? You would probably agree with the girls of Hamilton High.
5. A Sex Strike. I bet when you read this you might have been like "what a sex strike?" and I understand because those were my exact thoughts. Those angry girlfriends that I was talking about took action. Lissa rallies all the players girlfriends and get's them to go on strike until their boyfriends decide to give up the pointless rivalry.
6. Heartbreak. No real relationship is going to go smoothly. It will have it's ups and downs and sometimes it just won't last. Lissa learns what it really is to love, and how to let someone else take control for once. This book teaches you that not everything is going to be perfect and that sometimes you might change your opinion on certain things and people.
7. Romance: This isn't some graphic romance novel so if you are looking for that you aren't exactly going to get it. I found the book in the adult section but it really is not that bad but some things would be inappropriate for a thirteen year old.
8. Greek Mythology: This book is a romantic re imaging of Aristophanes Lysistrata.

Kody Keplingers blog.
This was a seriously good read. Enjoy it.

The ultimate mission

Love Abroad

Growing up, I always wondered what life would be like if my parents had sent me to a boarding school. Being a military brat it probably would have given me a stable environment to live in. I never thought about the possibility of falling in love at boarding school, and I definitely never thought about going to one over seas. But let's be honest how cool would that be? To be on your own in another country. Visiting cool places with your class mates all the time, and learning the language, unless you already know it. I like to explore so I wouldn't even be mad about getting shipped off. I've been independent my whole life and pretty adaptable. But what happens when you feel like you're being forced to go some where for your senior year of high school? All those friends you made won't be there for you at your new school... What happens when you start developing a relationship with someone and are forced to leave them behind only to start having feelings for someone else? Will people get hurt or will everyone be happy in the end? Will you discover new things about yourself or give up on trying new things?

Meet Anna...

Anna had  a perfect plan going. She was going to start dating her crush and have the best senior year ever. This soon comes to a halt after Anna's  dad decides to send her to a boarding school in France for Americans. He wants Anna to become more cultured. For the first time in her life Anna will learn what it feels like to be alone, have all the friends in the world, and she'll learn what love and happiness is all about.  Follow Anna on her journey.

What I thought?

This book was really good. It kind of messes with your emotions because you wish that certain things didn't happen. After reading this book I want to learn French and Italian and just travel the world. It's a romantic novel that will make you wish you could experience the similar things Anna is going through. It was kid of a short read, that is if you are a really fast reader, but I'd recommend just slowly enjoying the story. You won't regret reading this book.